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I feel unhappy because of the pressure to be better, to prove myself to the world. I was lucky that my parents does not give pressure to score 100 for every tests, some friends around me they pressure themselves just to gain their parent's approval, to impress peoples around them.

I'm currently in the state of in-between. I'm a unworthy of people attention because I'm not good enough, because I'm not smart enough, because I get bad grades in my studies, because I was not good at playing piano like the pianist, because I speak a bit stutter, because I don't look good enough,because I not rich enough.

Thinking of that feeling itself now made me sad, although I've passed that stage long ago. But I've come to realise that people who do that doesn't matter. You'll be unhappy with those people even after you gained approval - because there is always some other approval to gain. A never-ending cycle where you're trained to jump hurdle after hurdle. To be happy, you seek no one's approval but your own. You keep a distance from people you can't fit in with, people whom you constantly find yourself having to seek approval from, people who only value your for your intelligence, people only around you for favours. I struggle to keep in mind that only kindness matters - not the sparkling, the charming, the smart, although I would feel more of a mental connection with the tribe of people who have the advantage of being nice and thoughtful - the more vivid kind of goodness as Charlotte Bronte would say.

It's late now, I think I should go to bed now, Good night people. Hope tomorrow would be a meaningful day.

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First of all, I have to spend less time in front of the television and the computer. These are fun things but they are also very time consuming. The time is better spent with my books. My past experience have taught me that I took things too lightly and I didn't managed my time well, I run out of time in the end. Once I get into Uni life, I need to bucked up all those nonsense and busy prioritise on wrong things. Because I know, if I didn't get things together, I can bid farewell to graduating. Secondly, I resolved to cut down on my outings. It is fine to catch up with friends once in a blue moon.

Lastly I resolve to keep these few resolutions. A few resolutions is far easier to remember and is to keep than a dozen.

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Would anyone eat something that look like this? Go eat shit?

Don't worry. Despite it's look. It's edible.

Would post about it for the next update. Stay tune.

Till then, looking forward to the New Year Eve:)

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Anyway, I think is the time I need to give this blog a new look. A new layout for the coming year.

The author of the beyondthefairytales is back with a new layout. I decided to change this blog layout a couple of months ago. But because I have a lazy backbones, I didn't do it until now. Just now I was doing some research for my project. However, when I starting to write my essay, I get pissed off because I do not have any idea how to write properly. Therefore, I decided to find a new layout for my blog. So present you the new beyondthefairytales.

Are you having a good Christmas readers?

For me, I do have a good Christmas celebration yesterday. Spending some quality times with the loves one at Mid Valley yesterday and had a warmth and joyful dinner with my family. The celebration of Christmas for this year was rather simple. But it was a warmth and joyful. Too bad my kammy was underused.

I'm looking forward on the 31st of December. Gonna have lots of fun:D

More update. Just keep reading.

Love,

Emily

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